Hello my name is Jennifer and I am a people-pleaser. I’ve even been called “aggresively neutral” in my attempts to allow others to take the rein. To me, decision making is so full of trying to ensure that other people are happy that I just never want to do it. I’m happy doing anything, so why not just let others do what they want and go along for the ride? But somewhere along the way, it feels like I’ve lost myself just trying to be someone that everyone likes. Like a cup of lukewarm coffee that gets spit out. (Too graphic?)
But it’s true. To be neutral, even aggressively so, leads to a paralyzing inability to make decisions. You become the cup of coffee that gets dumped down the drain because it’s lost its charm. You lose the charm that makes you the special and incredible person that God made.
And what’s funny is God warns about this in His very word. “For you say I am rich, I have prospered, and I need nothing. Not realizing that you are wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked.” (Revelation 3:17)
Pitiable. Poor. Blind. Naked. Wretched.
I think that I have everything because I decide nothing. I go with the flow and I find fulness and completeness in what others think of me. But in between trying to be who everyone else wants me to be I lost who God wants me to be.
And, honestly, I’m still trying to pick up those pieces.
God wants me to love my neighbor not for the gratification of how they percieve me, but because that’s the person that he wants me to be. God wants me to be firm and to My journey should be to seek out that which is “pleasing ot the Lord” (Eph. 5:10). To live a life seeking the approval of others is the works of the flesh, things that lead only to exhaustion and insecuriy. To live a life seeking to live for God will be full of his Spirit.
“For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Sprit will from the Spirit recieve eternal life.” Galations 6:8
God didn’t make me to sit on the sidelines and let others lead me to corruption. He made me to be a force in His world as I work my way to eternity. There is goodness and joy in finding God. May I intentionally do good for God. Not for my own gain. “For in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.” (Gal. 6:9b)
Be a hot cup of coffee. Be intentional. Be decisive. But do it all for God.